Tonight I saw someone who was once a friend of mine 10 years ago. The meeting was easily describe as sufficiently awkward. I sipped on my beer, wanting to duck and hide. Panic flew over my body as I smiled and said a quick Hi. What I didn't expect was the after part. In ten years, things have changed. My personality. My job. Where I live. Who I spend my time with and the list runs on and on. I went home afterwards and was disspointed in myself for not saying all the words I dreamed about saying for years on end. I turned out my light got into bed and it hit me as I sat in my pajamas. I was okay. I was better than okay. I was in a great place in my life and my relationship with Tim that I so desperately didn't want to mimic that of Matt's, was different. They were different people in different times in my life. I wasn't making the same mistakes. I had learned.
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